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ᴅᴀɴ ғᴇɴɢ 丹枫 🌙 饮月君 ([personal profile] loong) wrote2024-04-04 11:04 pm

i want that can't sleep love

[ truth be told, dan feng is a little bit nervous.

they've been waiting to try this for quite a long time, after all, and with the kemmering finally approaching, well.. what better opportunity could there be? his mate's heat will stimulate dan feng's own rut, they'll both be at their most fertile, there's no reason not to at least give it a chance. no reason to be pessimistic, however low the chances might be. if they don't try, the chances will always be zero.

dan feng has made everything as comfortable for them as possible. their shared sprawling penthouse is clean, dinner is prepared, and anything they could possibly need or want is laid out. he's cleared out a space in their sunken common area, and lined it with thick blankets, pillows and cushions, like a nest, so they can be close to the kitchen and bathroom if necessary, and they can enjoy the view of the city together. there's even a bottle of white wine chilling in a silver bucket on a low table, beside two glasses.

he's dressed lightly, in simple hanfu, one pale green robe with a sash, his feet bare and his hair loose, all ornaments and jewelry removed and laid aside.

when aphelios arrives home, he will find dan feng sitting comfortably in the nest in the half lotus position, eyes closed as he meditates, eyes closed, and in his lap.. are several soft, beautiful, pearlescent eggs wrapped in silk, and kept close to absorb his warmth. he breathes deeply, calming and centering himself as he waits. ]


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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-05 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ by almost anyone's definition of the word, aphelios could be called a workaholic. he tends to stay late in the studios, tends to bring his work home, tends to let himself get caught up in whatever he's doing, focusing on one song until the words start to swim and he realizes it's been hours since he left his chair, let alone ate. on any normal day, he'll let himself in carrying a bag stuffed with scratch papers, covered in half-intelligible lyrics that he'll start to tease into proper verses while he and dan feng curl up on the couch after dinner.

but today isn't a normal day. today, aphelios left the studio before the sun starts to set; today, he hasn't brought anything home with him, not even a pen that might distract him from the plans he and dan feng have made.

when he was young, aphelios' aunts had always told him that the kemmer would only come regularly when he was ready to bear children—and even then, only when both heart and body were healthy and willing. the better part of a decade ago, in the early days of his and dan feng's relationship, he'd been irregular as anything—sometimes twice a month, sometimes three months without, sometimes triggered by dan feng's rut and sometimes triggering it in turn. it was normal, of course, it only meant they were still getting used to each other.

but that was then. now—and for the last four or five years, even, before they were married—it's come monthly, every twenty-eight days like clockwork. that's how aphelios knows he's ready, both in body and in heart, and why he'd brought up to dan feng the idea of trying to conceive. ]


I'm home. [ he calls out from the foyer as he hangs up his coat and bag. barefoot, phel makes his way through the apartment, following his body's instinctive awareness of his mate's presence until he's standing at the edge of their sunken nest.

looking down at dan feng, aphelios takes him in: his long hair soft and loose, his posture at once relaxed and perfectly precise. the steady rise and fall of his chest, the fold of his legs... and the silk bundle in his lap, translucent fabric just barely revealing the pearlescent shells of the eggs he's holding. ]


Oh, [ aphelios breathes out. he steps carefully down into the nest, then kneels in front of dan feng and rests his hands gently on his husband's knees. already he can feel the stirring inside him that speaks to his body's awakening, his readiness, his willingness to bear for this wonderful man. ] They're beautiful...
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-05 06:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ they will be. it's worth trying, to aphelios—even if it doesn't take the first time, they'll be okay. they can try again. he wants this so badly, after all... they both do.

he meets dan feng's gaze and returns his smile, soft and warm. just watching the way dan feng's fingertips trail along the soft shells of the eggs is enough to make aphelios shiver with anticipation, some combination of the rising heat inside him with his deep, abiding love for the dragon before him.

he taps dan feng's knee lightly and signs, ]
Should I make any special preparations?

[ he trusts dan feng implicitly in this, and will do whatever his husband guides him to do. if he should bathe, or something else... aphelios has of course noticed all of the ways in which dan feng has already prepared their space, so he's asking more after any rituals or anything he should do, himself. ]

My body is already... [ his gestures trail off as he waves vaguely toward his lower half. the physical change had come the night before, so at least he's ready in that regard. ]
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-05 03:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ one of aphelios' hands comes up to cradle the side of dan feng's face as they kiss, brief sweet presses of their lips together. it's perfect, the intimacy and anticipation of it, and aphelios nods once when they pull apart, helpless to do anything but smile in the face of how much he adores dan feng. ]

All right. [ another stolen kiss, and then aphelios sits back. ] I'll be quick.

[ on any other given day, aphelios lives in a state of controlled chaos, but today he's more efficient than he thinks he's ever been before. leaving dan feng to his meditation, he makes his way to the bathroom and pops a couple of painkillers, then jumps in the shower just in case—both to give the pills time to work, and to make sure that he's clean from head to toe. including his cunt, which is already growing sensitive with need.

when he dresses again, it's in clothing similar to dan feng's: a simple hanfu in a pale yellow to match the green of his husband's, his hair dry and soft over his forehead, his feet bare as he makes his way back to the living room. once again, he pauses in the entryway, struck by his husband's beauty. surely they could be married for a century more and aphelios would never stop marveling at it.

he knocks on the doorframe and then asks, ]
Do you need to eat too, love?

[ the fact that the eggs are already laid must mean that dan feng did some of the work before aphelios even arrived home, but he imagines that this evening will be demanding for both of them, and he wouldn't have his husband going without. ]
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-05 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ very well, then—into the kitchen aphelios goes, to serve himself a bowl of stir fry and rice. he sits in one of the bar chairs to eat it, slow and methodical. although he's too anticipatory to really feel hungry, aphelios knows well that he needs to keep himself well cared-for, hydrated and nourished—it's important that his body be welcoming, hospitable, a place where these eggs could quicken and grow. and the food is good, anyway. phel is spoiled by dan feng's cooking, truly.

once he's finished with his dinner, the dishes go in the dishwasher—one less thing to worry about, for the rest of the evening and likely the weekend that follows—and aphelios pads out to finally join dan feng in the nest. he settles in beside dan feng with no intent of leaving, not unless it's with those beautiful eggs inside him.

phel leans down to press a soft kiss to dan feng's shoulder, then the edge of his jaw. ]


I love you. [ his voice is a soft murmur, where his lips press to his husband's cheek. ] And I feel good. Strong, you know?

[ in the discussions that preceded this decision, dan feng had been clear that aphelios shouldn't be too hopeful—that it was no easy undertaking, to bread with a vidyadhara, and that he should be realistic about their chances. aphelios knows that there's a chance only one of the eggs will take, or none at all, and they'll need to try again and again and again before they succeed.

but he'd asked his twin to read the stars for them this morning, and alune had said their chances were as good as they would ever be, so phel can't help a little bit of extra enthusiasm. ]


Should we toast? [ their wine glasses, he means. ] What to?
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-06 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ now that's a toast that aphelios can give and easily. he lifts his glass and lightly clinks the rim of it against dan feng's. ]

To our family. [ he smiles, helpless to do anything else, and then takes a sip of the wine. it's cool, dry and fruity—it tastes perfect for this kind of celebration. the alcohol will help relax phel, too, and between it and the painkillers he imagines he'll be just fine. at ease, suffused with good wine and his husband's devotion—aphelios doesn't think he'll ever be more relaxed, honestly.

he's eager, yes. anticipatory, absolutely. but there's no part of him that's worried, or afraid, or uncertain. he's as sure of this as anything, knows deeply in his heart of hearts that this—their family—is what he wants more than he's ever wanted anything before.

settled comfortably against his husband's shoulder, aphelios sips his wine until it's a little more than half gone. only then does he finally set it aside and turn to face dan feng again. ]


...What should we do first? [ in this, aphelios is more than happy to let dan feng lead—he has the expertise, after all. ]
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-06 04:51 am (UTC)(link)
Now we begin, [ aphelios repeats, his tone reverent.

while the intimacy might not be needed, strictly speaking, phel can't say it goes unappreciated. he likes the way dan feng kisses him, deep and thorough and passionate, like he can't get enough—the same way he's kissed aphelios every day of their relationship, and the same way aphelios is sure he'll keep being kissed for as long as he lives. besides, the kemmering makes him sensitive all over, and so there's a practical aspect to it as well—the more aroused he is, the slicker his cunt, and the more easily the eggs will be able to slip inside.

so he kisses dan feng back with equal enthusiasm, mindful of their bodies but still eager as he spreads his legs to fit his husband's body and arches his back a little, pressing them together. the robe is loosely tied and the fabric falls easily to the side, allowing aphelios' bare thigh to rub up and over the silken fabric of dan feng's hanfu as he hooks it around his husband's hip.

unable to help himself, aphelios lets his own hands wander in return, threading through dan feng's hair and then brushing down his neck, his shoulders, the strong lines of his body. he's memorized every inch, by now, but will never pass up an opportunity to make sure his hands still remember what it feels like to slip under the collar of his robe and trace along his collarbone. ]
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-06 06:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ their bodies move together in a rhythm they've long since perfected. the heat of aphelios' skin and the coolness of dan feng's, the way his cocks harden and rub over the swollen heat of phel's cunt—he all but whimpers the first time he feels that friction right across his clit, his whole body shivering with pleasure. sometimes, aphelios feels like the skies must have put him on this earth just to be with dan feng—why else would their bodies fit so perfectly together?

there are still things to focus on, though, so aphelios tries not to give himself entirely over to his arousal just yet. his hands shift, pushing dan feng's hanfu over his pale shoulders and then dropping down to unfasten the sash holding the rest of the robe closed. the silk flutters luxuriantly around them and aphelios guides dan feng down to kiss him again, rocking his hips up, thighs spread so that dan feng can feel as much of his heat and wetness as possible.

it's only when those cool fingers slip down to spread him open that aphelios draws away from the kiss with a quiet gasp, his head dropping back as his cunt flutters and clenches around dan feng's digits. he's so wet, overheated, so sensitive, as he always is when kemmering—his body begging to be fucked, to be bred. ]


Dan Feng... [ his hips rock in minute little shifts, unconscious as if he's trying to take those long fingers deeper. his own hand slides down over his stomach to rub teasingly at his own clit. ] Mmh, feels good.

[ of course it does. dan feng has long since learned how to play aphelios' body like an instrument, knows every single sensitive place to touch to make him come completely undone. phel's fingertips circle his clit and his cunt throbs with heat and a fresh surge of slickness. he feels as ready as he'll ever be to take the eggs—although if dan feng wanted to fuck him first, aphelios certainly wouldn't say no. who knows? dan feng's cock is significant, after all, and maybe having it inside him first will make the passage even easier. ]
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-06 08:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[ even just those two fingers moving inside him are more than enough to have aphelios whimpering with need, his breath hitching in the back of his throat as his hips shift into the touch. his thighs quiver and his head falls to the side as dan feng's mouth moves over his jaw and throat, teeth grazing over his pulse. what feels like an age ago, the very first time dan feng had ever witnessed aphelios' kemmering, he had been almost embarrassed by how needy and desperate he became—not so, any longer. now he relishes it.

even though he knows why dan feng removes his fingers—and, indeed, knows that what's to come will feel even better than those fingers did—aphelios can't help a vague noise of disappointment as they slip free of his cunt. he pushes himself up on his elbows, still trapped in the soft silk of his hanfu, and looks down his body to where dan feng is rubbing the tip of his cock over the sensitive lips of his cunt. ]


Gods, yes. [ phel laughs breathlessly, overwhelmed for a moment by how vastly he loves dan feng and how right it always feels to make love to him. ] Please—I need you.

[ and as if to underscore his point, aphelios draws his thighs up a bit, exposing himself further and making it even easier for dan feng to slip inside him. just a little bit, just the tip of his lower cock, but still enough to make phel moan and drop back down to the blankets, his hands moving to reach for dan feng's waist. ]
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-07 12:20 am (UTC)(link)
[ a raw, desperate groan wrests free of aphelios' throat as dan feng pushes into him, his cock stretching aphelios open and making him ache. it doesn't hurt, though—it's the familiar, appreciable stretch of his husband's cock, and it drives phel absolutely wild, his breath coming quick and his thighs shaking under the coil of dan feng's tail. his muscles ripple, clenching around the thick length inside him, and his hands slip under dan feng's hanfu to press against his lower back, fingers curling against the muscle there and nails dragging over skin.

and then dan feng moves. all at once, aphelios feels overwhelmed by sensation, by pleasure—that first deep thrust drives a cry from him, and he feels lightheaded with need as dan feng's upper cock grinds against his clit, leaving a sticky trail of precum on his lower belly. as sensitive as he gets like this, it will surely come as no surprise that phel is suddenly poised on the edge of climax—he's usually one for multiple orgasms anyway, and even moreso when he's essentially in heat. ]


Oh, fuck, I'm gonna come, [ aphelios mutters right against dan feng's mouth, then kisses him, deep and thorough, his tongue curling into his husband's mouth. he arches his back almost unconsciously, his hips rocking to meet the rhythm dan feng sets for them. ] Nngh, a-ah—don't stop, don't stop, I'm coming—

[ and come he does, with a moan he muffles against dan feng's throat. his cunt throbs and clenches and floods wet all over again, slick dripping from him with every one of dan feng's thrusts and making wet trails over his ass and inner thighs. as ever, aphelios' orgasm is deep and intense and he shakes with the pleasure of it, but even as he starts to come down from his peak he can feel his cunt relaxing and his womb with it, tension bleeding from him and allowing his body to prepare to welcome their breeding.

leaning up for another kiss, phel sneaks one hand in between their bodies as dan feng continues to thrust inside him. he uses it to cover that smaller upper cock, pressing it down against his own belly, giving dan feng something to grind against as he moves inside aphelios. ]


I can feel it. [ drunk on pleasure, aphelios whispers back to dan feng, his cheeks flushed and his gaze bright as he looks up at him. ] My body... I can feel it getting ready for you. [ he presses his palm a little more firmly, right atop where the eggs will sit. ] Fill me, my love... I want it, I want my womb full of your eggs and my cunt full of your seed...
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-07 05:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ oh, dan feng knows well that it makes aphelios crazy when he does that—when he pushes all the way into phel and stays there, unmoving, just letting aphelios really feel the heat of him, the weight of his cock inside phel's body. it makes him squirm and pant, his cunt clenching in helpless needy waves, at once desperate for dan feng to move and hoping that he doesn't. aphelios wraps his legs around dan feng's hips, locks his ankles behind dan feng's back and holds him deep inside, shuddering at the sensation until dan feng starts to move again.

there's a part of him that wants to tease dan feng, something like will you still think i'm pretty when my belly is full of your growing babies?, but the truth is he already knows. he knows that dan feng finds him beautiful, and also knows that dan feng will more than likely find him even more beautiful no matter how his body changes—that the simple fact of aphelios carrying dan feng's children will make him even more devoted, if such a thing is even possible.

so instead, phel just leans up to kiss dan feng again and again, moaning in return as dan feng fucks him deeply, fucks into his cunt and his hand. he whispers, ]
I want that, I want it so bad, baby, [ and thumbs over the head of dan feng's smaller cock, using the steadying grip of his thighs against dan feng's hips to tilt his hips up into each of those intense, perfect thrusts.

breed me, his body almost seems to be saying. i'm ready, i'm ready, i am a warm fertile land where your seed can grow. i will give you the children you dream of, no matter how long it takes. ]
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-07 06:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ even though dan feng's skin is cool, his spend inside aphelios feels like liquid gold, molten hot. it makes aphelios moan again, his cunt twitching and thighs shivering as he's treated to pump after pump of his husband's seed, filling his cunt and dripping hot and sticky over his lower stomach. gods, but it feels good, the mess of it, the fullness—he feels so full, contentedly so. ]

I love you too... [ aphelios tips his head to press his lips to dan feng's temple, fingers stroking through the mess of his long, dark hair and then down his back, over the thin, clinging fabric of his robe. ] I love you so much.

[ and, as they both expected, their lovemaking has indeed relaxed phel beyond even what dan feng's fingers could accomplish. he feels utterly sated, tension evaporating from his muscles and leaving him a quivering mess of little more than pleasure and raw nerves. perfect, aphelios thinks. dan feng is perfect for him—they're perfect together, as they always have been.

although there is some time sensitivity to their task, aphelios thinks there's still no great urgency just yet. at the very least, they should have time enough for this: for him to cup dan feng's face in both hands and tilt it so their lips press together for a slow, languid kiss, deep and thorough and full of absolute adoration. he takes his time with it, licking into dan feng's mouth, letting their tongues slide and curl together. he can never really get his fill of kissing dan feng, but at least by the time they separate, aphelios feels more or less satisfied.

he drops his head back to the soft blankets of their nest and smiles up at dan feng, flushed and beatific. ]


Will you put them inside me? [ if he extends his arm at just the right angle, aphelios can very nearly brush his fingertips over the silk that still covers the clutch of eggs, where they're sitting off to the side of their joined bodies. ] I think I'd like if you did it... at least the first one.
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-07 08:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[ aphelios lifts his head at least enough to watch dan feng pull out and begin to kiss down phel's chest, a smile tugging at his lips. sometimes he wishes that he could just keep dan feng's cock buried inside him all night, for the sense of fullness it provides as well as the sense of safety—that his husband is close, that the world is set right. but if dan feng does have to pull out, then at least aphelios gets to indulge in watching his husband kiss down phel's body, over his chest and stomach, to settle between his thighs. really—hate to see him leave, but love to watch him go.

he keeps his head lifted to watch dan feng reach for one of the eggs—beautiful, their shells soft and nearly iridescent, perfect in every way—but finally drops back to the blankets when he feels the shape of it press against his cunt. at first, it doesn't feel like much—little more than the sensation of using a toy on himself, really—but as dan feng continues to apply gentle pressure, pushing the egg further into his body, aphelios starts to really feel the way his cunt stretches around its shape. it's not pain so much as it is a dull ache, and he takes a deep, slow breath and exhales it, relaxing further as he does. ]


Mmh... [ it's not a noise of pain, but it is mild discomfort, and aphelios brings one of his own hands down to press against his lower belly, pressure applied there against the ache of having something so large put inside him. still, when he speaks, his voice is warm and loving, with only a hint of tightness at the edges. the pre-shower painkillers were a good suggestion. ] Hahh—babe, is it... can I, or can you...

[ it's hard to think straight to find the right words, so aphelios slips his hand down a little further to rub fingertips slowly over his swollen, sensitive clit. with his free hand, he signs one-handed, ] Is it okay if I do this?

[ the moment feels unbearably intimate, almost sacred. this process of taking his husband's eggs into his body, and what it signifies for both of them—starting a family, continuing on a bloodline that's in danger of ending... phel doesn't want to debase it by pleasuring himself, if dan feng would rather he didn't. it's just that he thinks that the stimulation might make the passage a little easier, the sensation a contrast against the ache of being stretched. ]
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[personal profile] heartsteel 2024-04-07 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ it's so much better when it's dan feng's tongue instead of his own fingers—always, but especially now, as the egg slips deeper and aphelios feels his womb dilate and stretch to accept it. the pleasure of having dan feng's lips around his clit, sucking softly and teasing at its head, does plenty to drown out the ache of being stretched, but it's still a strange feeling and more than a little overwhelming.

dan feng tells him to breathe. aphelios takes a deep breath, then starts to exhale, and as he does he feels a sharp stab in his lower abdomen, the first spike of real pain he's felt so far—he makes a noise through clenched teeth, a bitten-back groan of discomfort—and then he feels it, something inside him giving way, feels the egg slip through and settle into place inside him. the pain vanishes, the ache abates slightly, and aphelios is left panting softly, his cunt clenching faintly around its sudden emptiness. ]


Oh. [ his palm is still pressed against his lower belly, and aphelios stares up at the ceiling for a moment, then lifts his head up again so he can look down at dan feng. ] I have... I have your egg inside me.

[ he sounds awed, astonished. phel's eyes are wide, and as he locks gazes with dan feng, he can't help but grin helplessly as his eyes fill with happy, emotional tears. it's obviously not the most comfortable process, but aphelios never doubted that the rewards would be worth it, and he's beyond glad to be proven right. ]

Will you do the rest? [ okay, so maybe he said "at least the first one," but now that they've managed the first one, aphelios is sure that he wants dan feng to do the rest too. it's somehow easier when it's his husband's sure touch guiding the process, when it's his husband's mouth on his clit and hand and tail on his thigh. ]

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