I know, [ blade says quietly. reproduction among short-life species is the same, risky at the beginning and not always proceeding as expected; he can only imagine that the same would be true in a species that hasn't reproduced this way in thousands of years. ] I will... moderate my expectations until the largest risks have passed.
[ but something in his heart of hearts still feels determined to believe that this pregnancy will proceed as it should, safe and healthy and strong. dan feng is an incredibly capable healer, after all, and blade himself is in excellent health—with the two of them as parents, shouldn't their child stand the greatest chance of being carried to term and being born without issue?
(granted, this is just blade's blind faith in dan feng; there's certainly science to it that he doesn't understand.)
unable to resist the temptation, blade leans forward just enough to close the gap between their mouths, pressing a brief but warm kiss to dan feng's lips. for a moment, he allows himself to be caught up in the moment, relishing the familiar sensation of dan feng's mouth against his, the taste of him on blade's lips—
there's a clatter of something just outside dan feng's door, maybe a tray being dropped, and blade comes sharply back to himself. he withdraws both his kiss and his hand from within dan feng's silks, although his gaze is still warm with affection when he looks over from a respectable distance away. ]
I should go before we're discovered, [ he says. ] Call for me soon, your highness. I'll be waiting.
[ dan feng dips his head in a nod. he, too, will moderate his expectations, but even still, he can't help but hope that it will take. that it will work. not only because it would all but solve the vidyadhara's population problem, but also.. also because he wants this, personally. a child of his own, with someone he cares deeply for - what more could he ask for?
it's foolish, he knows - foolish to hope that it will succeed. what will become of blade if he is found out? what would become of their child?
well, dan feng is nothing if not confident in his ability. he may be restrained by government and politics, but in the end, there are none who can match him in power, and they will learn that the heard way, should they even attempt to take his child or his lover from him. he has known about this pregnancy for only a week now, but he knows that he would tear down the world for their child without hesitation.
blade leans in, and dan feng meets him halfway, leaning into the kiss with a soft, quiet hum, his hands lifting to cup blade's jaw, and he's ready to push for more when he hears the noise beyond his door, and blade pulls back from him. ]
I will. I won't keep you waiting.
[ not this time. and, in fact, it isn't long at all before dan feng calls for his bodyguard again. it takes less than a week for the room beside his own to be prepared, and while his preceptors and advisors question the need for excess safety, in the end they have no real reason to attempt to deny him. so it is that five days later blade is summoned not to dan feng's quarters, but to his own, new ones, where his prince waits for him beside the door. ]
[ it makes perfect sense that in the intervening days, blade would hear little from dan feng. other than his assigned duties as a member of the cloud knights, blade has no reason to be appraised of the crown prince's personal affairs, and so he spends the next handful of days completely in the dark—running drills, taking patrols, performing his duties to the letter. even so, blade suspects that the revelation of dan feng's pregnancy would be enough to throw the whole castle into a tizzy, and he's sort of expecting that upset to be the trigger for his assignment to the guard room behind the crown prince's chambers—
but when the orders come, it doesn't seem that anyone is yet aware of the true reason for the change. blade packs his things as commanded and keeps his mouth shut, but once he's made his way up to the new space and been given his new orders, the first thing blade does after the commander has left is to enter the room and find dan feng waiting for him. ]
Your Highness, [ he says as he drops his rucksack atop a low bench near the front door. blade bows, as propriety dictates he must, and then straightens so he can cross the room to stop a few steps in front of dan feng. ] It seems I've been reassigned as your personal guard for the time being.
[ it's not blade's place to ask what dan feng's plans are as far as revealing his pregnancy. he'll find out when he needs to find out. for now, he's just reveling in the novelty of being so close to dan feng—to being allowed to be so close to dan feng, without having to sneak away in the wee hours of the morning to make it back to the barracks before training begins.
it's also not blade's place to be the one to reach for dan feng first, so he keeps his hands firmly at his sides as he says, ]
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[ but something in his heart of hearts still feels determined to believe that this pregnancy will proceed as it should, safe and healthy and strong. dan feng is an incredibly capable healer, after all, and blade himself is in excellent health—with the two of them as parents, shouldn't their child stand the greatest chance of being carried to term and being born without issue?
(granted, this is just blade's blind faith in dan feng; there's certainly science to it that he doesn't understand.)
unable to resist the temptation, blade leans forward just enough to close the gap between their mouths, pressing a brief but warm kiss to dan feng's lips. for a moment, he allows himself to be caught up in the moment, relishing the familiar sensation of dan feng's mouth against his, the taste of him on blade's lips—
there's a clatter of something just outside dan feng's door, maybe a tray being dropped, and blade comes sharply back to himself. he withdraws both his kiss and his hand from within dan feng's silks, although his gaze is still warm with affection when he looks over from a respectable distance away. ]
I should go before we're discovered, [ he says. ] Call for me soon, your highness. I'll be waiting.
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it's foolish, he knows - foolish to hope that it will succeed. what will become of blade if he is found out? what would become of their child?
well, dan feng is nothing if not confident in his ability. he may be restrained by government and politics, but in the end, there are none who can match him in power, and they will learn that the heard way, should they even attempt to take his child or his lover from him. he has known about this pregnancy for only a week now, but he knows that he would tear down the world for their child without hesitation.
blade leans in, and dan feng meets him halfway, leaning into the kiss with a soft, quiet hum, his hands lifting to cup blade's jaw, and he's ready to push for more when he hears the noise beyond his door, and blade pulls back from him. ]
I will. I won't keep you waiting.
[ not this time. and, in fact, it isn't long at all before dan feng calls for his bodyguard again. it takes less than a week for the room beside his own to be prepared, and while his preceptors and advisors question the need for excess safety, in the end they have no real reason to attempt to deny him. so it is that five days later blade is summoned not to dan feng's quarters, but to his own, new ones, where his prince waits for him beside the door. ]
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but when the orders come, it doesn't seem that anyone is yet aware of the true reason for the change. blade packs his things as commanded and keeps his mouth shut, but once he's made his way up to the new space and been given his new orders, the first thing blade does after the commander has left is to enter the room and find dan feng waiting for him. ]
Your Highness, [ he says as he drops his rucksack atop a low bench near the front door. blade bows, as propriety dictates he must, and then straightens so he can cross the room to stop a few steps in front of dan feng. ] It seems I've been reassigned as your personal guard for the time being.
[ it's not blade's place to ask what dan feng's plans are as far as revealing his pregnancy. he'll find out when he needs to find out. for now, he's just reveling in the novelty of being so close to dan feng—to being allowed to be so close to dan feng, without having to sneak away in the wee hours of the morning to make it back to the barracks before training begins.
it's also not blade's place to be the one to reach for dan feng first, so he keeps his hands firmly at his sides as he says, ]
I'm yours to command as you see fit.