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i want that can't sleep love

[ truth be told, dan feng is a little bit nervous.

they've been waiting to try this for quite a long time, after all, and with the kemmering finally approaching, well.. what better opportunity could there be? his mate's heat will stimulate dan feng's own rut, they'll both be at their most fertile, there's no reason not to at least give it a chance. no reason to be pessimistic, however low the chances might be. if they don't try, the chances will always be zero.

dan feng has made everything as comfortable for them as possible. their shared sprawling penthouse is clean, dinner is prepared, and anything they could possibly need or want is laid out. he's cleared out a space in their sunken common area, and lined it with thick blankets, pillows and cushions, like a nest, so they can be close to the kitchen and bathroom if necessary, and they can enjoy the view of the city together. there's even a bottle of white wine chilling in a silver bucket on a low table, beside two glasses.

he's dressed lightly, in simple hanfu, one pale green robe with a sash, his feet bare and his hair loose, all ornaments and jewelry removed and laid aside.

when aphelios arrives home, he will find dan feng sitting comfortably in the nest in the half lotus position, eyes closed as he meditates, eyes closed, and in his lap.. are several soft, beautiful, pearlescent eggs wrapped in silk, and kept close to absorb his warmth. he breathes deeply, calming and centering himself as he waits. ]

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[ oh, this man is really going to be the end of aphelios. he doesn't seem to need even a second of thought, just holds phel's gaze as he brings his mouth back down to lavish sweet torture upon aphelios' sore, sensitive cunt. he's so thorough about it, too, his lips and tongue working slowly over the labia, then inward to dart his tongue inside and taste the mess he's made. phel moans, his fingers tightening and spasming in dan feng's hair as he works aphelios over slowly but thoroughly, leaving him a trembling, panting mess of raw sensation.

all of that before he even reaches phel's clit, too. as well-fucked as he is, his clit is still throbbing with pleasure, and when dan feng sucks it gently into his mouth to tease at the swollen head of it with the tip of his tongue, aphelios all but wails. his thighs spread wider and he presses his cunt hungrily up into dan feng's mouth, unable to stop himself from pursuing the pleasure coursing through his body. ]

Please, your fingers—haah yes just like that—

[ even without a prostate at present, the pressure of dan feng's fingers against his taint is still delicious, and when he trails his fingertips higher to tease over the wet opening of aphelios' cunt, it sends another jolt of pure pleasure through his body. he loves to come under dan feng's mouth, but loves it especially when dan feng puts his fingers inside him and gives him something to clench down on—especially after being fucked by such gorgeously thick cocks, aphelios really wants that sensation of fullness. ]

[ he knows what his love wants, what he needs, so of course he doesn't hesitate. two long, slim fingers slide into aphelios' body, sinking deep for how wet he already is, nice and loosened from being fucked so thoroughly.

he doesn't need to draw this out, not when aphelios has already enjoyed a few nice, lengthy orgasms - this is just a little victory lap, and dan feng being greedy. so he doesn't tease, but sets to work immediately, crooking his fingers against phel's g-spot and rubbing firmly as his mouth locks around his clit, sucking hard, teasing the head in little circles.

he doesn't say anything, doesn't want to interrupt his husband's pleasure, just fucks him deep on his fingers and suckles relentlessly at his tender clit, enjoying the way he squirms and pants, and all those lovely little noises he makes. aphelios is always so wonderfully vocal, from sweet, wanton moans to filthy words, he always lets dan feng know that he's doing right or wrong, for which he is grateful. before aphelios, he'd abstained for hundreds of years, after all, so being guided in this way was always helpful. now, of course, he knows his husband's body well enough to play him like a finely tuned instrument, but he appreciates the noise he makes all the same.

another deep, rough hum and dan feng opens his eyes, watching his beloved's face as it twists up in pleasure. he doesn't have it in him to get hard again, but that doesn't mean that he can't appreciate the way aphelios looks - how very beautiful he is - when he's getting fucked. ]

[ the sensation of dan feng's fingers fucking deep into him, relentless against his g-spot, makes aphelios pant for air as his hips shift and press into the touch. he feels dizzy and overwhelmed, pleasure hooking its claws into him deep in his lower belly and climbing slowly up his spine. dan feng's fingers make wet, indecent sounds as they fuck him, and his tongue is hot and insistent against aphelios' clit, and phel all but sobs when dan feng hums and the vibrations rock through him. ]

Harder—harder, baby, fuck me just like that—

[ aphelios' thighs won't stop shaking with every deep, firm pass of dan feng's fingers over that sensitive place inside him, and he can feel his muscles tightening as pleasure climbs and climbs inside him. it's a slower build, this time—it fills aphelios' head with honey, focused entirely on the tightening sensation between his thighs, like pressure building inside him.

surely dan feng knows what he's doing—it isn't the first time he's brought aphelios to this kind of peak. but it seems like phel always forgets how intense it is until he's right there in it again, feeling his back arch and his toes curl, one hand dropping to clutch at the cushions as dan feng's mouth and fingers pushes him higher and higher. ]

Oh fuck I'm gonna come, [ phel whispers, desperate and breathless and shaky with arousal. his tongue feels clumsy, like he can barely manage the coherence it takes, and his body feels tight all over, the pressure inside him beginning to boil over. his nipples tighten, his cunt clenches hard— ] Don't stop—don't stop don't stop don't—fuck—fuck I'm coming, I'm coming—!

[ the pressure builds and builds and builds and then, all at once, releases in a heady, powerful rush. aphelios' breath catches in his throat as his orgasm hits him, and for a moment he can't even exhale, caught in the intensity of it as he comes around dan feng's fingers, hot, clear slick squirting from him in dizzying gushes that soak dan feng's hand and the robe beneath him. it's overwhelming, the pleasure, and when aphelios finally gets his voice back it's to moan loud and raw and filthy, his whole body starting to shudder with the intense, heady aftershocks of so powerful an orgasm. ]

[ dan feng does, in fact, know exactly what he's doing, knows how to make his husband writhe and beg, knows very well how to touch him to make him squirt, and he's chasing it quickly, relentlessly rubbing that spot, feeling the way his pussy spasms until at last aphelios is arching off of the chair. he hums through it, listening closely to the way that aphelios' breath catches, holds, then rushes out of him in a raw and noisy moan, music to dan feng's ears. that's what he wants to hear, yes. that's what he wants for his beautiful, perfect husband.

his beautiful, perfect, filthy little whore of a husband, screaming about coming until it bounces off the walls.

dan feng fucks him through the full length of his orgasm, feeling the tight clamp of his cunt followed by the inevitable gush of hot fluid against his palm, drenching his hand and rolling in droplets down his arm, splashing his collar, soaking into that pretty robe. he keeps going, keeps moving until he's gotten everything he can out of aphelios, and only once he's twitching and jerking with overstimulation does dan feng finally stop, drawing his fingers out with an obscene noise, and unfastening his mouth from his abused clit with a wet smack.

after that, he's laying his head against aphelios' thigh, drunken as he looks up at him, licking his swollen, reddened lips. his jaw aches a little, but that only means his husband is fully satisfied. with an easy smile, dan feng nuzzles his soft thigh, presses kisses there, then climbs to his feet, buttoning up his trousers again. then, without further announcement, he leans and lifts aphelios from the chair, cradling his boneless body against his own. ]

Now you certainly need a bath.

[ the insistent, unrelenting movements of dan feng's fingers keep aphelios coming for far longer than he knew he could, until he's utterly spent and completely sated. by the time that touch slips free of his body, phel is panting and shaking with overstimulation, slumped back exhausted and boneless against the cushions of the armchair. his legs are twitching helplessly, and every time he breathes too deeply his clit throbs and sends a jolt through him, making him moan weakly.

dan feng's arms around him are a relief, and he's happy to be scooped up into his husband's strong grip and carried away toward what phel can only assume is the bathroom, although he's far too out of it to pay attention to where they're going. all he can focus on is dan feng and his cool, familiar scent, his touch, his arm under phel's knees and around his back. ]

Ugh, gods. [ he groans softly and turns his face into dan feng's chest, then laughs, sounding unbelievably self-satisfied as he finally starts to come back online piece by piece. ] I can't believe you...

[ ...all right, well, to be fair it was aphelios who basically goaded dan feng into making him squirt like that by dirty-talking him over the phone, but still. he reaches up weakly to touch the place at dan feng's collar where he'd soaked the cloth with his slick and grins, then leans up to press a kiss to dan feng's jawline. ]

I love you so much. You'll take a bath with me, right? [ with not a single ounce of embarrassment, aphelios turns his very best puppy dog eyes up at dan feng. ] Please? Your babies miss you~

[ the two growing inside him, of course. but also him, he's baby as well. ]

[ dan feng and his three babies..

and here aphelios is, grumbling and complaining about his incredible orgasm. dan feng doesn't feel in the least bit guilty for fucking him until he can't walk properly, he had it coming. shaking his head, dan feng sighs, then chuckles softly. ]

When have I been able to deny you anything?

[ never, really. their entire relationship began with aphelios' insistent goading, after all, even in the beginning he wasn't able to deny his husband anything. the only milestone that had been at dan feng's hands had been their engagement. he loves his husband so damned much that it aches fiercely, and now that he's pregnant.. honestly, dan feng hadn't thought himself capable of loving aphelios even more, but somehow, he does.

they step into the bathroom, which is as comfortable and elegant as the rest of the penthouse, with a large pool built into the tiled floor, through which clean, fresh water is always filtered. he sets aphelios down on the counter, leans in to kiss his sweet little mouth softly, then begins to shrug off his clothing. ]

I'll wash your hair for you.

[ he had like a seven year test run before he committed, can't complain now...

the answer makes phel grin, half smug and half just... unabashedly happy. he never doubts that dan feng loves him and would do anything for him, but there's something about hearing it said, or seeing it proven even in the tiniest ways, that really makes his heart fill with warmth.

he lets himself be plopped down on the counter and only clings for a second, tugging dan feng in for that brief, adoring kiss before he lets go so dan feng can remove his clothing. his feet prop against the front of the cupboards and he leans back against the mirror, giving himself a little bit of extra space, relief from the pressure of his growing belly.

idly, aphelios runs a hand over the shape of it, tracing its curve. still so new, to look down at himself and see evidence of the new lives that have quickened in his womb. he may joke about dan feng still loving him when he gets fat, but the truth is that aphelios looks down at himself and can't help but love the way his body is changing, the miracle it represents. ]

Alune texted me this morning. [ his gaze lifts from his belly up to watch his husband undress, and after a second aphelios wolf-whistles quietly, always eager in his appreciation of his husband's nude form even if he's far too exhausted to even think about getting horny again. ] I was thinking about asking her over for dinner next weekend, if you think you'll be home on Saturday night. I'll cook~

[ he sure is not complaining!! he loves his two small babies and one large baby.

it doesn't take long for dan feng to shed his clothing piece by piece, dropping it all into the laundry hamper near the door, all the while able to feel his husband's eyes on him. he'd be lying if he said he didn't like the attention. it's nice to feel wanted, even after all of these years together. he keeps his body strong and fit for his own comfort, yes, but also for aphelios to enjoy. dan feng's build is willowy and long, but his sinewy muscles are well defined beneath his long faded scars.

at the mention of alune, dan feng turns from the hamper and steps back over to his husband, bracing his hands on the lip of the counter on either side of him and leaning in with a smile. ]

I think that's a lovely idea. I'll be home.

[ dan feng is of course incredibly supportive of aphelios' familial and friendly relationships, knowing full well how close he is with his twin. she's lovely, and dan feng has never turned down her company. besides, whatever aphelios wants, aphelios gets, without fail.

shifting, dan feng scoops his husband up again, effortless, carrying him toward the inset pool and carefully stepping down the built in stairs. warm water rises around them, and dan feng hums appreciatively - a vidyadhara is always at home in the water, which is one of the reasons this bathroom is so opulent, given dan feng's more reserved tastes. carefully, he seats himself, arranging aphelios is his lap, coaxing him to lean his weight back into his arms. ]

[ dan feng has indeed always been immensely supportive of aphelios in all areas of his life—adores his twin, has made efforts to get to know the other lunari elders, gets along well with yone and the heartsteel members. he's even polite to sett, whose name always prompts a slight twitch of dan feng's nose.

and while phel knows that dan feng's own familial connections are few and far between, and tenuous at best (if that), he hopes that one day, with time, he might grow to let himself be loved in return by the people who love aphelios—to find a family in them, alongside the family they're creating, the two of them and their growing babies. ]

I'll text her back later. Tomorrow. Remind me? [ aphelios doesn't really think his brain is going to be useful for much for the rest of the evening, except having dinner with dan feng and then spending the rest of the evening curled up next to him.

or in his lap, just like this. aphelios settles easily, leaning back into dan feng's warm embrace and relaxing as the water supports them both. when they'd moved in and dan feng had proposed his renovations to the bathroom, aphelios had sort of laughed at how opulent the room was going to be—now, though, now that he's seen how at ease dan feng is in the water and felt for himself how perfectly comfortable it is to be in the pool with him (because it really is more of a pool than a tub, by a long shot), he understands the appeal completely.

with a happy, content little noise, aphelios relaxes a little further into dan feng's arms and then reaches up to trace wet fingertips along the line of dan feng's jaw. ]

So, how was your day... [ he asks, grinning unabashedly. ]

[ it's not that dan feng does not desire to be close with aphelios' family and dear friends, he's simply.. well, not very good at it. centuries as the high elder, having had to maintain a cool distance from most people, followed by centuries more of imprisonment doesn't really breed camaraderie. he keeps his distance, even though it is no longer required of him to do so, simply because that is what comes most easily to him, and it was why aphelios had to work so hard to coax him around. dan feng is not an easy nut to crack.

but he's trying. he loves aphelios with his entire full heart, which means he wants to love the people that aphelios loves. even sett, that fucker. it's taking some time, but he's coming around slowly but surely, learning to be social again after centuries of solitude. aphelios helps. his warmth and vivacity can be a little contagious. ]

I'll remind you.

[ even though aphelios' brain might be entirely fucked out right now, dan feng will remember.

for now, though, he gathers his husband up into his arms and keeps him close, dropping a line of kisses along the curve of his shoulder, soft and sensuous, but gentle, loving, without the needful heat from earlier. his sweet aphelios is a little bit beaten up, with scattered marks and bruises on his shoulders and neck, but that's simple enough to clear up. pressing a hand to aphelios' chest, he releases a bit of cloudhymn, healing his husband's aches and scrapes with minimal effort.

and after that, his hand slides lower, over the swell of phel's pregnant belly, smoothing over the tight skin there, cradling him. to think, their little ones are in there right this moment, growing, getting ready to meet the world.. ]

It was rather mundane. Uneventful. At least, until someone interrupted my peaceful drive home..

[ honestly, slowly but steadily coming around is all aphelios can ask for. he'll never pressure dan feng about it, but it does make him happy to see the baby steps as they occur. besides, it is sort of hard to not like alune...

the sensation of cloudhymn flooding him is always just a little bit ticklish, and aphelios squirms slightly in response, making a noise of amusement. when it passes, he settles again and leans up to press a grateful kiss to whatever he can reach of dan feng, most likely his chin. ]

Thank you, baby. [ he doesn't mind being marked—indeed, sometimes he asks dan feng to leave the bruises and bites alone just so he can have a little reminder of how good the sex was—but tonight he's happy to be healed, to have his husband's sweet attentions paid to him as they cuddle together in the bath. the kisses dan feng presses along his shoulder are warm and welcome, as is the way his hand slides down to cradle the swell of aphelios' belly. ]

Sorry~ [ he's absolutely not sorry in the least, and it's evident in his voice. phel's hand drops to cover dan feng's, and his other idly presses to the other side of his stomach. more and more, it's becoming a comfortable place to rest his hands. ] But it does seem like you enjoyed that someone's interruption—

[ all at once, aphelios cuts off, his gaze dropping from where he'd been looking up at dan feng to instead look at his belly. after a moment, phel grabs dan feng's other hand and presses it to where his had been, low on the right side of his stomach. ]

Do you feel that? [ a moment, and there it is again: the unmistakeable twinge of something moving, inside his womb. ]

[ oh. oh, everything else comes to a screeching halt. ]

What?

[ dan feng is no longer worried about what a brat his husband is, not now, when his other hand is being guided to phel's belly, smoothing over it, and sure enough, there's a little movement beneath his palm. there's a cold prickle of shock down his back, followed by immediate burgeoning joy. ]

My love -

[ he whispers softly, leaning his chest further against aphelios' back as he curls closer to him, holding him as close as he can manage to, and despite himself dan feng is grinning like an absolute fool. they knew that they were beginning to approach the time that they'd be able to detect their babies' movements, but knowing it was coming, and feeling it, are two different things. he exhales hard and trembling, splaying the fingers of both hands further over phel's belly, hoping to feel even more. ]

Ah.. I can't believe it. They love the water, too.

[ he chuckles, nuzzling his nose and mouth both to aphelios jaw, pressing soft, happy kisses there, his tail swirling through the water to curl around his husband. ]

They're moving.

[ as much joy as aphelios feels just from the thought of their babies moving around inside him, it's multiplied tenfold by getting to see how much joy dan feng feels at feeling it. his heart swells with love, and he presses his hands atop his husband's so he can feel every strange fluttering little movement as one of the twins clearly decides to do some somersaults or something. ]

What did you expect? They're your babies, sweetheart. [ aphelios' grin is wide and blissful, and he tilts his head a little to the side to let dan feng kiss along his neck however much he wants. ] It makes sense that they take after you.

[ maybe she's mad because they were bumping her around like crazy earlier... aphelios doesn't say that aloud, though, just hums contentedly and settles down to continue watching his belly. after a few minutes the movements quiet again, and phel shifts his hands to dan feng's wrists, then pulls his arms around aphelios in a back hug.

like this, cradled in his husband's warm embrace, surrounded by the water and reminded all over again of the life growing inside him, aphelios can't help it—after a moment, a hot tear slips down his cheek and he sniffles loudly, then laughs at himself as he lifts a hand to wipe his face. ]

Oh, gods. I'm just— [ he turns in dan feng's lap to press his face against his neck instead, exhaling wetly into the skin there. ] I can feel them when they move. I didn't... I didn't know it would feel like that.

[ his joy is indescribable, immeasurable, his heart fit to burst in his chest. they've gotten confirmation through tests, they've seen images through the ultrasound and watched as aphelios' belly grew, but this, feeling their movements.. makes it all feel so incredibly real. more than anything previously had. feeling the evidence for themselves that their babies are alive and active, growing strong enough to wriggle around in there, is wildly moving.

he can't stop kissing his husband, can only hold him tightly and securely, grasping with his hands and tail both, as if he could crawl right into aphelios' skin, given the chance.

when he hears that little sniffle he isn't surprised. this is a monumental little moment in their lives, and aphelios has been terribly sensitive lately - if even dan feng is feeling as if he could cry, surely aphelios must be barely holding it in. when phel turns in his arms dan feng cradles him close immediately, dipping his head to kiss the tearstain from his cheek, then his soft, pretty mouth. ]

I'm envious of you. I'd love to be able to feel it.

[ to know what it's like to carry their children.. what a beautiful feeling it must be. smoothing a hand back through aphelios' soft hair, dan feng tilts his head up to kiss his mouth again, softly, sweetly, several times in a row. ]

What does it feel like?

[ that's exactly the thought that's brought aphelios to tears now: that despite seeing the ultrasounds, despite watching his belly grow week over week, it's this that feels like the real confirmation that the babies inside him are strong and alive. not that he didn't believe the doctors, it's just... it's different, to feel them quicken inside him.

he snuggles into dan feng's arms and clings. honestly, with his hormones all over the place as they've been the last couple of months, aphelios has been a little embarrassed about how easily his mood changes—how easily he cries, or gets his feelings hurt, or gets irritated only for it all to was away in minutes. but dan feng, aspect bless him, has been bedrock solid the entire time. ]

I wish you could. [ he cups dan feng's face gently and presses their lips together again, and by the last kiss he's smiling, even if his eyes are still a little glossy. ] It feels like...

[ a pause, and then aphelios laughs and presses his nose against dan feng's cheek. it's a stupid comparison, but it's the only thing that he can think of to accurately describe how it felt to feel their babies shifting inside him. ]

You know when you catch a frog in your hands and you can feel it trying to jump?

[ aphelios' mood swings hardly bother him. dan feng knew that it would happen, had mentally steeled himself, and while it sometimes flares up out of nowhere he is patient with his husband. it's not as if aphelios can help it, and besides, if this is the price they must pay to bring their babies into the world, it's a small tax to pay. he's always there with tissues for his husband, and likewise knows when to leave him be as well, until he cools and calms. they manage just fine. love and devotion are powerful things.

he smiles for aphelios, swiping his thumbs beneath his pretty pink eyes to brush the tears away from his lashes, and when aphelios hides his face again dan feng laughs softly, both arms encircling his waist, holding him close. ]

A.. frog?

[ dan feng sounds bewildered, flipping through his memory banks, but he's quite sure that he's never caught a frog in his hands. he was chosen as high elder when he was very young, which meant that his childhood was.. well, a bit nonexistent. he didn't get the opportunity to play in the mud with other children, catching bugs and frogs - that sort of thing was, naturally, beneath such an esteemed personage as himself. so he soon shakes his head. ]

No, I've never caught a frog. But I can imagine the sensation well enough, I think.

You've never caught a frog?

[ even though aphelios has by now heard the story of dan feng's life, and understands that his childhood would have been extremely limited due to his selection as high elder, it's still—a little surprising, sometimes, to hear the things that aphelios took for granted that dan feng never experienced. even growing up in the lunari temple before the massacre, even as one of their blessed twins, aphelios and alune had always been allowed to play. they were readied for what their lives would mean, of course, but they were also allowed to be children. it was an opportunity they would only have once, after all.

he presses a tender kiss to dan feng's throat, then wraps his arms around dan feng's waist and squeezes him back. ]

Well, then. Guess when the summer comes we're going to have to go catch frogs together.

[ take a couple of days off work, go out to the countryside where aphelios was born, and catch frogs in the mud. have popsicles and walk barefoot and enjoy the heat before their babies make an entrance into the world.

aphelios sits up a little, feeling a little more settled, and cups some water in one hand to scoop it over his belly, his chest, and then dan feng's chest in order. idly, he thinks about how nice it's going to be to have this deep inset pool when he's huge and the buoyancy of the water can take some of the weight off. ]

Maybe we should soak in here more. See if they like it just as much, so you can feel them more.

[ at the time, dan feng didn't have too much of a problem with his childhood. it was all he ever knew, after all, and though he was certainly a spoiled and rebellious little thing there were things that were strictly not allowed. playing in the mud among them. by the time dan feng finally found warmth and companionship in the quintet, he was far too old for catching frogs.

and also, you know, still the high elder. not that the preceptors could have stopped him at that point, if he had wanted to go frog catching. so when aphelios suggests a summer vacation to play in the mud, dan feng looks a little puzzled before his expression softens into a smile. he knows what aphelios is trying to do, offering him experiences he was never able to enjoy. his sweet husband.. ]

Mm, all right. I suppose a little mud won't kill me.

[ it might tho. he can be a bit of a prissy diva sometimes..

when aphelios begins to wash them both, dan feng allows it without complaint, soon reaching for two soft washcloths and handing one over to his husband. ]

And I think that would be a good idea. That they would resonate with the water isn't so surprising, really. I'm curious to see how their abilities develop..

[ aphelios has his own powers going on, after all, and dan feng has his cloudhymn.. but this is all but unprecedented among the vidyadhara, that a high elder should produce offspring. who knows how powerful their children might be? ]

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